Normal Biopsy

I was very relieved to read the email from my doctor that said I had a normal endometrial biopsy. I knew that if it was something bad he would call me. Whew! The ultrasound isn' t scheduled until mid-March. I'm not going to spend a lot of time worrying about it. There could be something wrong, or not. Thank God it's not endometrial cancer.

Shepherd Me Oh God

I had an endometrial biopsy today to help rule out uterine cancer. It hurt like crazy because my menopausal cervix had to be dilated. At least the doc apologized for the pain. He's thinking I'm probably okay because the lining of my uterus is so thin. If there were cancer or hyperplasia going on that would not be the case. I should have the results by next week. They have me scheduled in March for a pelvic ultrasound. I'm worried but I'm not worried. Over my lifetime I have had more than one cancer scare. None of them have been the dreaded C.
I spent some time this morning in centering prayer in preparation for this afternoon's procedure. I knew it was going to hurt and I was afraid. I tried to give my fear to God but it turns out that I could only have God help me hold it. So here I am still worried about something over which I have no control but I'm not alone with it.

I have today off and I plan to make the most of it. I haven't been taking time for important habits that help me feel well. I keep meaning to spend more time in prayer and take my dog for long walks but there always seems to be something else like work and distractions getting in the way. I know people say you need to schedule your day but I hate schedules. Yesterday I did manage to walk Lady the dog to Home Depot. I also spent some time in Centering Prayer before bedtime. I love spending time with God and even though it's the best way to keep spiritually and mentally healthy I let it fall to last on my priority list. Today will be different. I am going to take Lady for a walk up to her favorite pet supplies store. We will then go to the coffee shop next door and sit outside enjoying our treats. We will walk home and I will spend some quiet time with God. Just for today, I have a plan.

The beginning

It has taken a long time for me to plunge into the world of blogging. I've been journaling for years and blogging is like it but not the same. It took me awhile to find my voice in journaling and I expect that it will take some practice before I find it here. Wish me well.