I wish it were only food

I'm in a bad mood today. I filled out my health questionnaire for my health plan and "there is a strong need for change" in my body mass. Not only does the TV and the newspaper tell me I'm fat but I now have confirmation by my HMO. I have dieted before and I know what it takes to be successful. I have to weigh and measure portions and count calories. I hate being compulsive! I also know that when I do lose weight I will get more wrinkly. Hmm, wrinkly or rotund? That is the question. If I have the courage to do this I know that my joints and stomach will thank me. Why can't it just be food? Why does it have to be such a battle?