Reading recommendation time

I've read many good books lately.  My Kindle has been very busy.

Please Look After Mom by Kyung-Sook Shin
A mother with dementia goes missing at a train station.  It's told from many points of view.

Before I Go to Sleep: A Novel by S.J. Watson
A woman's memories are lost every time she goes to sleep.  She must become reacquainted with her husband each morning.  She hides a diary so that she can make sense of her life.  Is her husband hiding something?  A hard to put down thriller.

Dreams of Joy: A Novel by Lisa See
A continuation of the story in Shanghai Girls which was also fantastic.  A young American Chinese woman runs away to China during the time of Mao to get away from the mother that she's just found out is her aunt.  She finds life very different from the Chinese utopia she imagines.

The Leftovers by Tom Perrotta
People disappear in what might be the Rapture.  This is nothing like the Left Behind series.  This is actually well written.  Those "leftover" try to continue with their lives some by joining a the Guilty Remnant whose members dress in white, take a vow of silence, and must smoke cigarettes.

Children and Fire: A Novel and Stones from the River by Ursula Hegi.  I had enjoyed Stones from the River many years ago so when Children and Fire came out I had to read it.  Some of the characters are in both books.  They deal with the first world war, the depression Germany had afterwards, and the resulting Third Reich.  Both show how simple it is to be eased into evil and the price of its resistance.  I re-read Stones from the River and realized once again how excellent it was.  You don't need to read one book to understand the other but do yourself a favor and read both of them.

Then They Came for Me: A Family's Story of Love, Captivity, and Survival by Maziar Bahari and Aimee Malloy.  I saw Mr. Bahari on The Daily Show with Jon Stewart speaking about his ordeal in Iran during and after the elections in Iran.  He went there to report on a most exciting time of hope for great change and ended up imprisoned and tortured in Evin prison. He survived by remembering his father and his sister who had suffered in Iran's most notorious prison in the past under different leaders

Enjoy, friends.

A Happy Birthday

Let's just get this out of the way.  The 58th anniversary of my birth fell on the 10th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks.  I wonder if people born on December 7th (Pearl Harbor anniversary) have the same sort of problem I do.  People wonder if I should be bummed about having my birthday on such a solemn day.  I answer that I was born long before those terrorists were in diapers.  I mourn the state the world is in but I celebrate my birthday.

Last year I was really sick from chemo for my birthday and couldn't enjoy it at all.  Although there is something to be said about being alive to celebrate one's birthday, so last year had something going for it after all.  This whole summer I've been grateful for the contrast between this year and last year.  This year Lady and I can walk as far as we want.  I can let nature unfold all around us.  I felt like I totally missed last summer.  Bed is no substitute for walking along the creek listening to birdsong and reveling in the joy of life.  My birthday weekend was great this year.  After work on Saturday Martin took me to A Terrible Beauty, a new Irish pub in West Seattle.  I had a couple of pint of Harps and I even had cake for dessert!  Then yesterday on my birthday proper the festivities continued.  My friend Moe from church made a card for me, there were lots of happy birthdays on Facebook, my son called from Oakland, my daughter on the road texted me, my brother called me,  and my oldest daughter and her husband took Mr. D and me out for dinner at The Rusty Pelican in Wallingford.  Ahhh, satisfaction.  

Oncology appointment

Yesterday a customer at the store was congratulating me on my positive attitude. I was happy to be working in a place with windows on a sunny day rather than being bummed out about it. This morning as I was driving to my oncology appointment I was smugly patting myself on the back for my good attitude. Then, on Delridge Way traffic comes to a slow crawl at Edmunds Street. It is one slow car length ahead at a time. As we are crawling along someone slams into my rear end. Great, you're going 5 miles and hour and you can't keep from hitting me! Both of us get out and seeing there is no damage we continue on our way. My attitude is not so positive! Okay, we finally make the West Seattle Bridge. Traffic looks like it's moving. Hooray, that wasn't so bad. I might even make it to my appointment on time, no worries. I don't take the freeway because it is really slow as usual. I take my normal route to the clinic on 23rd. La, de, dah. I get to McLellan and there is sign that says 23rd closed. I have to detour on Rainier Avenue and so does everyone else! When I get to the clinic, I can't find a spot in the lot until I cruise for a time. Growl! I've got a negative attitude. At least the clinic staff is kind and I get to see my doctor. Moral of the story: Don't think you're so hot. You might get a lesson in humility.

I'm happy to say that I'm doing really well. I had no complaints for the doctor and he didn't find anything for me to complain about. The Arimidex is not causing me any side effects that I know of. I just pop the pill every night and I'm fine. I have another four months before I see my oncologist again and have a mammogram in another year.

There is some sad news from our store. Two of us who were battling cancer are now back but on Saturday the third person, a checker for many years, lost her battle. We had been hoping she would be back. Rest in peace, Barb.

First post treatment mammogram

I had my baseline mammogram done this morning. This is just routine. Still I felt a little anxious. It was a routine mammogram that caught the last cancer. I'm not worried, just cautious. After all, they nuked my cancer back to the stone age. I have an appointment with my oncologist on Tuesday to discuss the results.

I am amazed at how good I feel. I had gained weight with treatment and now I am slowly losing weight with Weight Watchers online program. I'm eating healthier and walking a lot. I'm sure that's got a lot to do with how healthy I feel. It also doesn't hurt that chemicals and radiation have stopped bombarding my body. I just hope it stays that way (see above paragraph).

Progress

Radiation is over and I get my port out next week. It's been wonderful but tiring to be back at work. It's been amazing how many of my customers are cancer survivors. I had no idea there were so many of us. There are stories to be told of struggles with chemo and lost hair. One young man hasn't cut his hair for over ten years. He's not willing to part with an inch of his hair. I can't say I blame him but I think I'll get mine cut when the time comes into some cute style. Right now my hair is a quarter of an inch long so there isn't much danger of me putting the scissors to it any time soon.

Radiation was definitely easier than chemo. It gave me a fatigue I could manage. I'd get up, get my treatment, take a nap, eat lunch, and then go to work. Through it all I was able to take Lady for walks and build up my stamina. I am working part time which is plenty. Most of all I am happy and ready to face my future with hope.

The next phase

It snowed Tuesday night and the snow stayed less than 24 hours. This is a picture of Longfellow Creek on Wednesday. I had some library books to return and some holds to pick up so Lady and I decided to walk to Delridge Library via the creek trail. It is now raining. Welcome to Seattle.

I'm feeling great right now. It's been over a month since my last chemo. I'm noticing fuzz on my head. I still look bald but there is hope. I had salt and pepper hair before; the fuzz is gray. Wednesday I start my radiation treatments. They will occur every workday for the next 6 weeks. After Wednesday I'll be able to tell work when they can schedule me. I'm looking forward to working again and having life a little more predictable.

New beginnings

Shortly it will be 2011. I'm looking forward to the new year. Every day I feel better. Every day I can push myself a little farther. God is good. I know that my radiation therapy starts in January but that is the future. This is the now that is very easy to exult in. Seattle's sun is shining. It's cold but beautiful.

I have really enjoyed the holiday season. My son and his significant other are visiting from Oakland and my 2 daughters and their husbands live in Seattle. It's so nice to have all my children close at hand. It's so nice to feel well enough to enjoy them totally. I got to be at the extended Dermody family at Christmas with my grandniece, almost 9 months old. She's cruising around and it's so fun to see her get where she wants. Also, being able to buy toys again for Christmas, priceless!

May all of you have a blessed New Year and may there be peace in your hearts.