Bless this mess

I finally made it to my women's spirituality group last night. I felt like I was behind everyone else because I hadn't completed all the assignments in the book. My cold has left me with little energy and some days I've been lucky just to collapse at the end of the day and thank God for my blessings and ask for his help for those I love. I'm too tired for words so we're just there, God and me. Anyway, many of the women had done all the reading and journaling and had some profound insights. It inspired me to take the book we are using, The Cup of Our Life by Joyce Rupp, and begin anew with the second week's exercises today.
Today's topic was the clutter in our lives that keeps us from filling our soul-space with God. I had trouble with that at first because I live a cluttered life. I've been trying to change for years but my OCD stands in the way. I've learned to live with it, occasionally throwing stuff out or shoving it to the side. So the exercise is this, "Sit quietly. Go within. Look around inside. See what clutters your life with God." That's what I did. I went inside myself and God just picked up the stack of magazines and newspapers on the couch of my mind and shoved them to the side. Then he sat next to me. God meets me where I am and works with me so that I can become what he wants me to be. He looks beyond the clutter and he sees me.