Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Shepherd Me Oh God

I had an endometrial biopsy today to help rule out uterine cancer. It hurt like crazy because my menopausal cervix had to be dilated. At least the doc apologized for the pain. He's thinking I'm probably okay because the lining of my uterus is so thin. If there were cancer or hyperplasia going on that would not be the case. I should have the results by next week. They have me scheduled in March for a pelvic ultrasound. I'm worried but I'm not worried. Over my lifetime I have had more than one cancer scare. None of them have been the dreaded C.
I spent some time this morning in centering prayer in preparation for this afternoon's procedure. I knew it was going to hurt and I was afraid. I tried to give my fear to God but it turns out that I could only have God help me hold it. So here I am still worried about something over which I have no control but I'm not alone with it.

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